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Of all my creative and poetic ambitions, motherhood is definitely my favorite, and most successful.

Writer's Block

It would be fitting that I began blogging, years ago, with a post about "Writing." I guess when all else fails, write about writing itself, or about becoming a writer. It's not that I've had nothing to write about, good god there's volumes to cover for the past few months of my adventure called life. The same block I have for writing is what I have in my life now though. Partly, this is a new beginning. New friends, new home, new work- pretty much starting from scratch. I think anyone would feel a bit stumped. The other side to this is less natural to me. Fear. I am Rochelle! Tenacious, unstoppable! So- Me, afraid? Well, yes! F#%_ing terrified actually. New work? New Home? Friends? It's all unsettling. So what does this have to do with writing? My fear in writing- or at least, what stops me from doing it- is the same fear I feel in life. Fear of Failure. Once you've been scorched by failure, and have that acid taste left in your mouth, you never want t

Falling Away

Let it all fall away Passively, quietly. Do not cry out or force and do not be numb but feel, What you have every right to feel. Now, this is the point Where your trust in God, must be immense. Trust. Let it all fall away.

Coins Turned

She said "But, I want to show you some signs." As one glass after the other fell to the floor, we looked at each other Knowing we'd been seen and feeling the scene to come. The signs were posted everywhere that night. Clearly read and certainly understood, pointing Firm and correct The path had become dangerous, as if it had not been all along. Tossing coins to summon an answer already known. He spoke "There are no signs to exits passed," They turned to the clouds Thunder called and struck down its point, a point well taken. Now there is quiet, in ourselves we converse Too scared to draw a map, though we've been here before. With the signs and his light we took on this movement, in action we moved in faith through the dark.

God made friend

My friend, dear friend... God made you,  to be that for me. No escaping that fate. And why would I try? We are made from the same. I look at you and I see me, I know you do the same. Yet, how different we can be. Joined for life no choice about it. What a gift we could be- for each other. How can you look at me deny our bond, and turn me into wrong. I see my own way too but I make a choice- to look at what's real. You are my God made friend. By soul and blood and experience. What a shame- to let this friendship go to waste.

When it Rains it Pours

"When it rains it pours." Car problems then a ticket then an auto accident. A forgotten bill then a new debt then you lose a job. One problem precedes the next in kind, not necessarily causing it, but certainly compounding it! Or, more positively... You find a new job then a debt is paid back then an unexpected check arrives. You hear from an old friend then another shows up at your door then you meet a new friend. One gift precedes the next, not in direct relation to, but in relevance to the whole. Why does this happen? Coincidence? If it were, that phrase would not exist. We have all found this phrase to be true at some point. "When it rains it pours" "Good things come in threes." etc. A simple term would be the Law of Attraction. When you begin to think about a certain thing- or more importantly to feel the reality of that thought, you attract other things like it. "Like attracts like." The moment you thought of car troubles, you attrac

Balance- as a verb

It's almost a cliche...between work and home, relationships and self, we are told to find balance. As if balance were a state of being rather than an act. When you balance, are you not constantly readjusting? Give a little to one end and take a little from the other. If we view balance as something to be sought after and achieved, then it will be a disappointment each time we must adjust. Balance  is not a homeostatic state to be achieved, not a goal to strive for and not a place you will arrive.  Rather.... continuously, weights are measured, debts and credits compared. Adjustments must be made, it is simply part of the act  of balancing. In adjusting and adapting, be open to what weights are placed on your scales- but be ready to counter them as well.  Balance is a way of living, not a position you're likely to find in yourself. Also known as.... Equality - Equilibrium Mental/Emotional Steadiness Power or ability to decide an outcome Difference between Debt